The song "" (A Pain in My Soul), performed by Halit Bilgiç in his 2019 album Papatya , carries a heavy historical and emotional weight. While Bilgiç’s version brought the song to a wider audience, the "story" behind it is rooted in the life and tragic death of its original lyricist, Nesimi Çimen . The Story Behind the Song
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The lyrics were penned by , a renowned Turkish folk musician and poet who was one of the victims of the Sivas Massacre on July 2, 1993. During the massacre, 33 intellectuals and two hotel workers were killed when a hotel in Sivas was set on fire by a mob. The song "" (A Pain in My Soul),
: The song mentions Mansur (a reference to Hallaj-ı Mansur) and Kerem (from the tragic love story Kerem and Aslı ), both of whom suffered for their beliefs or love, mirroring the singer's own "burning" soul. During the massacre, 33 intellectuals and two hotel
: The lyrics describe a "wound without a bullet, without a dagger, and without blood," emphasizing a psychological or spiritual grief.
The song’s central theme—that the pain is not in the body but in the soul (" Bedenimde değil ruhumda sızı ")—is often interpreted as a reflection of the deep social and existential suffering Çimen felt during his life as an Alevi folk poet. After his death in the fire, these words took on a haunting new meaning, symbolizing a wound that cannot be healed by doctors or medicine. Key Themes in the Lyrics